June is an incredibly hard month for me this year. This week, especially, because June 13th marks the one year anniversary of my father’s death. I can’t believe he’s been gone for an entire year. There are days when I feel like I spoke to him less than 24 hours ago, and others when I feel like he’s been missing from my life for an eternity. I’m continuing to use this month’s Snapshot Saturday Posts to pay tribute to him. I couldn’t think of a more fitting tribute to honor this painful anniversary than a simple photo taken of his head stone. I know you are always looking down on me and I can’t thank you enough for everything you did for me! I love and miss you more than you could know.
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This week’s craft projects came from Pinterest, as usual… I know, I know, it doesn’t seem like I have an original idea ever, but with so much inspiration available what am I supposed to do? I’m working on a holiday crafting theme, and when we put up our tree I noticed that there were a couple of things missing from it – something to honor the loss of my dad, something to commemorate our new home, and something to honor the newest members of our family. This week I set about finding a way to remedy that situation… I found these pins:
They both seemed like things I could do myself & that we had the supplies to make, so I decided I would try. First I made the “Someone in Heaven” Ornament.
I found a clear glass ball, a paint marker and some ribbon.
Then I pulled up the exact wording: “Because someone we love is in Heaven, there’s a little bit of Heaven in our home.” Next I started writing with the paint pen on the glass ball. (I made sure the surface of the glass was clean and dry before I did this, so the paint would go on nicely.)
I liked how the words came out, but don’t love it… I’ll probably redo this one at some point when I have more time, because I want it to be perfect, but it works for now.
When it was dry (about 5 minutes later). I tied a ribbon to the top metal loop.
And hung it on the tree…
Then I went back to the crafting table (in this case the coffee table in the living room), to start on my next homemade ornament – the one to honor our first house together. Now, this isn’t our 1st home, apartment, property purchase or anything like that, but it is the 1st house we bought together and one of the things my dad wanted most for us. So, even though I swore up and down for what seems like forever that I wasn’t ever going to own a house, I buckled and made the leap to honor his wishes. (I can honestly say, that it was worth it most of the time.)
For this project I also gathered my supplies: some silver Sculpey III clay, my house key, a nail, Sculpey glaze, a paint brush, a parchment lined cookie sheet, and some ribbon.
I started by preheating the oven to 275 degrees, then I opened the clay, broke off two strips and started kneading it to make it pliable.
Once it was malleable, I made it into a pancake shaped disc about 1/4 inch thick and 3 inches in diameter.
Then I took the key and pressed it into the left side of the circle to make an impression.
Once I was sure you could tell it was a key, I pulled it off the mold and was left with this:
I took a small nail and made a hole at the top of the disc to attach a ribbon to for hanging. I also used the nail to write the words “Our 1st House” next to the impression of the key and the year underneath the words.
Then it was off to the oven for 15 minutes of baking. I also let it cool over night, so that the glaze would set without any issues. The next morning, I glazed both sides of the ornament (letting each side dry for 30 minutes).
When it was dry I threaded a piece of ribbon through the hole in the top of the ornament and knotted it against the clay, leaving enough slack to create a loop and bow further down to use to hang it from.
Then it was off to the tree with this one…
What other ornaments should we make, get or put on our tree? Do you have any that are really special to you?
Ok, so you all know that I am on a quest to read every book I own, but as I mentioned last month, I’m also trying to reread one book from my childhood a month. Last month, I read Bridge to Terabithia. This month’s selection was Pollyanna by Eleanor H. Porter.
I don’t know why I keep picking children’s books that center around death and loss. OK, that’s a stretch, because I’m pretty sure I do know why I picked them. In my quest to read them all, I’m reading the books in a predetermined order, the way they were placed on the bookshelf prior to packing everything away in storage, with consideration of series order. The children’s books, on the other hand, I am choosing on an individual basis. So I have chosen these two books with purpose. I didn’t admit to or recognize that purpose when I selected them, but I am a firm believer in fate and subconscious (or unconscious) leanings. My dad passed away in mid June and these stories must have connected with me on a deeper level than I even remembered.
Pollyanna is about an orphaned 11 year old girl who comes to live with her spinster Aunt. The story centers around this young girl’s transformation of the people around her. She helps them find the silver lining in any situation. At this point in time, I definitely needed a refresher on this lesson. I loved the story and am now going to have to track down a copy of the movie…
This week’s installment should probably have been posted on Thursday, because it is totally a throwback to my childhood. As you probably know, I’m on a personal quest to read every book I own, and this week’s book also happens to cross over into another one of my personal challenges. Starting this month, I’m trying to reread one book from my childhood a month for a year. I chose to start this smaller quest with Katherine Patterson’s Bridge to Terabithia.
The first time I remember reading this book I was in 2nd grade. My grandfather had just passed away and I was familiar with the concept of death, so my parents didn’t think the content was too far over my head. I remember connecting with both Jess and Leslie at different points in the book, but also wanting to have the relationship Leslie had with Bill and Judith, too. This book evoked complex emotions for a 7 year old, let me tell you… It still does, almost 30 years later. This time when I went back to read the book, I was surprised by the depth of the characters and the emotional connection that they stirred in me. Now, I know I’m still grieving over my dad, and that will always have an impact on how I view death and dieing, but Ms. Patterson handled the issue like no other in my opinion. She gives a juvenile audience a touching way to identify with the diverse emotions and myriad of questions that surround the loss of someone very close to you. I loved the way that the book touched on the uncertainty and the eventual overcoming of the trauma associated with an unexpected loss. Jess grew in so many ways throughout the book, and that showed how much Leslie had touched him. This type of connection and the growth that comes from it is the most touching part of the book, for me, because I strive to see those changes within myself each day since I lost my father.
This week I went with something metaphorical, to symbolize the way my life has been heading in the last month or so. It was really rocky right after my father passed away in June, but since then it has only shown real signs of looking up. I’m happy, healthy, surrounded by people I love and who love me, and making strides in the right direction! My dad is looking down on me and mine and I am happy to show him how his blessings have given me the strength to get myself back on track and looking up!
This is a photo of the Dale Chihuly glass ceiling at the Bellagio is Las Vegas, NV.